bile aku pikir2kan balik....

sepanjang hampir dua tahun ak kat kmb, hidup aku penuh dgn stress belajar....
mase mule2, ak rase cam xder sorang kawan pon yg ak boleh anggap kawan...xder sorrang pon yg bole ak rely on academically.
most of them are really good in academic performance, but they r not really good in sharing it..mayb aku jek yg terlalu bodoh....masuk kmb pon sebab luck.....

waktu 1st year of kmb, ak tau result aku teruk.....aku bajet nnt 2nd year conform akan improve...
p malangnyer, makin terok adela.....aku masih x give up utk tros belaja n belaja n belaja.....for the sake of my parent....i dont wanna hurt them with my bad result....p as time goes by...still i cant cope up with the learning processes in kmb....its toooooo fast for me.....then i realised that mayb its not my destiny to fly n study oversea.....(not now)............so diam x diam....i invovled in a charity program....the cambodia trip called serumpun hati....(kalo x silap r....da lupe da)....

sedar x sedar....i think this is the only thing taht makes sense for me at kmb.....mayb this is the only way for me to get out of this very stressful life here....so i made this project as my very own baby......i put my full commitment to make this become reality....with my good friends joining the team (farid, wamu, ammar, hosni, syuk sapuan, adlan, syuk kecik,nina, n team perempuan yg laen yg ak pon x berape ingat) n especially to pn rokiah yang mengoffer aku n farid utk handle this project......walaupun stress jugak project nie n this project r at the end of 3rd sem....which is near to the final, p stress project ni la yg mengajar aku mcm2 bende!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thinking of her.....wanting her

i dont wanna lose like b4......

but i donno where/how to start......

god help me n guide me......

is feeling good...n its awesome

when we made ppl happy, we ll feel tremendously good!
when we stopped someone's tears, we ll feel supremely awesome!
when we reinstalled somebody's spirit, we ll feel remarkably inspired!

oooo.... wut a nice balance GOD has created for his servants....

p/s: the only problem here is consistancy....can i continuosly give good advices to ppl n get inspired by it???

tired of routine!!!

!!!

ooo mann....

ihv been in formal education system 4 15years n im bored!!!
penat r asek2 d same routine jek every day....diff envi but same routine!!!
kekadang rase penat r nak studi....p selalunyer ak xder r rase camnie....
sekali rase boring...memg terbawe2 r berhari2 unless ade smting slap on my face....
huwaaa!!!!!!

bile r nak abes studi medic nie!!!!x sabarnyer nak masuk clinical year!!!!mahu add banyak lagi experiences in life!!!! mahu make my life more colorfull!!!!!!!

want to change all my routines yg boring2 kepade life yg lebeh best....erm....

besar cita2 nie

bday ku yg pertame....=)

heay!!!!

hepi belat3ed dbay 2 myself....n this was my second cake og my whole life!!!!

my 1st one was my 20th bday celeb at phnom penh, cambodia
n this was at padi restaurant, cyberjaya malaysia.....

the best thing bout both cakes is ak x tau pon mereke membeli kek ini utk bday ak.....n im so touch regardless ape sebab mereke membeli kek ni=)

p ak rase yg 2nd cake nie la yg paling touching sekali....yela, yg tukang belinyer da la ak x tau sape...

n yg dtg celebrate plak bole ak katekat we ddnt share something in common la.....rase cam x penah ade real connection ngan mereke but yet, mereke gak la yg plan bday party utk ako....

huhuhuhuh...ak terharu gler....

kepade zahran, najah, faz, syafiqah, kecik, izzat zed, sayyid, izzal,hann, anwar, faizeen, zhaf, ismeth....walaupon korang x dpt bace nie, p ak sgt berterime kasih kerane telah mengterharukan aku utk satu malam.....hehe

n ak rase mayb bet zahran, najah, faz, syafiqah, kecik, izzat zed, sayyid la yg sanggup plan bende nie....n double credit to him/her!!

nie la 2nd kek bday ak!!!da potong separuh da baru teringat nak amek gambar

ak rasela, antare mereke niela yg baek hati mengplankan sume nie...huhuh

baru ak tau bday kecik n ak same rupernyer.....hehe

thanks kepade mereke sume kerane datang gak

those 2 cakes akan ku ingat smpi bile2.....huhuhu....

alone...again....

kadang2, bile balik umah, rase best jek...hilang stress ngan medic life nie....
p selalunyer biler balik umah, selalu face benda yg ak rase x sepatutnyer ak face....
ntahla, mungkin ak jek yg terlalu mengharapkan sume bende akan sentiase best,
atau mungkin ak jek yg xnak paham perangai family members ak....

ak bajet balik bole r makan sedap2....siap hidang...xperlula ak pegi dapor cari...tanye lauk ape hari nie...mak masak aper......p akhirnyer ak jugak yg kecewa.......kekadang tue, ak masak jela aper yg terlintas kat kepale otak ak nie.....yela, bile balek umah....bajet makanan da terhidang...bole la tros makan ker............mungkin ak yg xnak pham betape bizinyer mak ak sengsorang kat dapur....nak mengharapkan kakak ak, mintak maap la....bagi ak, walaupun die nie ok jek, p die terlalu mementingkan diri sendiri......adek pompuan ak plak, keras kepale....hoho...ntahla....ak pon x paham.,,,,

smpi kekadang tue ak rase lebih baek ak x balek umah....lagi bagus....makan jek kat luar...xperlu tgk perangai adek beradik........ntahla....xder sesape yg paham pon ape yg ak rase.....
n ak pon da penat nak phm ape yg mereke rase.......

diharapkan dgn adenyer hidup ak sebagai student nie, sedikit sebanyak dpt menenangkan ak daripada kekusutan hidup sebagai sebuah famili......

walaupun dua dua kehidupan nie ade baek buruknyer tersendiri, ak still sunyi.....
hanye aku dan aku sendiri......xder org yg nak tanye ape yg ak rase....xder org nak paham ape yg ak cube smpikan.....xder org pun yg bole ak percaye utk ak menceritekan segalenyer......ya allah, kurniakan lah ak isteri yg dapat mengjadi pelengkap diri ku ini.....isteri yg dapat menemani, memahami dan bersame dgn ak susah senang......sahabat2 yg sentiase bersame ak susah senang....keluarga yg memahami ak......yg paham kehendak isi hati ak.....insyaALLAH...amin

world's greatest lesson

life to death....

how long does it takes????who knows???
what will happen between it?????who knows???
how do u start n how do u end it???who knows???
when we r talking bour life, we often forget to put death in it....

the thing is, do we prepare for death???n how???

ramadhan...is a reminder

app 6 days 2 go for ramadhan...
i hv been thinking,

how many sins dat i hv done???infinity...
how many good things dat i hv done 2 encounter it???hard 2 say....
am i lucky enough 2 hv another ramadhan???only ALLAH know

will i change 4 d better???still trying...
do i hv friends 2 remind me of my wrong doings???do i?..
where can i find a determination 2 studi even harder for dis becoming 2nd year???still searching...
who can really b by my side whenever i need one???friends cant guarantee...ALLAH will

how can i put myself among d ppl i wanted 2(good muslims/ppl)???cant answer it...
should i b some1 not myself just 2 look good???tired of pretending...
what should i do 2 make this ramadhan meaningfull???what2?..
what can i do 2 make ppl understand my thought???only ALLAH will


ooo ALLAH, d most merciful,
please3 guide me 2 d true path.....
please3 give me strength 2 going true obstacles in my life.....
please3 give me good friends who can guide me 2 u.....
please3 forgive me for all my wrong doing!!!!!

things dat u should ask your new friends

1) full name...mane r taukan name glamor nick, rupe2nyer name btol abu...haha

2) tempat asal n tempat tinggal. saje nak tau die nie asal maner. penting gak sbnrnye. bole buat bahan sembang2 gak.mane r tau jumpe org bote ker, kuale ker, bole gak r mengpractisekan loghat perak ak nie....

3) adek beradek bape kerat....perlu ditanyer n diselidik gak..

4) mak bapak keje per...indirectly ble gak tau kalau2 die nie anak yatim ker, mak bapak da becerai ker...etc...so x perlula kter bebualhal2 berkenaan parent byk sgt...terguris die nnt

5) tnyer gak r die nie da der gf ker x....hahaha...kalo muke hensem p xder gf agak pelik r kan...atleast mesti ader yg bekenan dihati r...kalo xder 2, hati2 r ek...mane r taukan...ermm, laen r kalo ko pon same cam die...hahahahaaa...kre 2 kali 5 r...

6)hobi dier...p cam pelik gak r tanyer directly "hobi ko ape?"...so ayat yg sesuai ak rase "ko bile free suke buat per ek?"

7)...nnt r ak gtau...ader distraction nie...bau hancing...huhu

siemens run 2010!

siemens run 2010 is d 2nd event dat i had involved as a volunteer....n it was fun!

dough penat tahap kentot time 1st day, xper sbb on d 2nd day x penat langsung!!!

1st day (17th july 2010)
is a goodie bag packing......we need 2 pack 5500 pack of goodie bags consist of 7 items in it!!!
kalo bayangkan mmg r cam kene guner more than 20 ppl 2 finish it.....n was supprized dat only 14 of us jek yg ader 2 finish all of it!!!!!!n we r expected 2 finish it in 8 hours non stop!!!!

n guess wut????we were able 2 finish it by 3pm n it was 5600!!!!new record!!!!!hahahaha...dat wut i call it as excellent team work..=)

eventhough we ddnt know each other very much(i dont even ask some of d team members name!), as we all understand our jobscope, everything going very fast n smooth!!!!alhamdulillah=)

2nd day (d day after)
i came 2 dataran merdeka at 530am...just 2 make sure dat i got d most suitable n safest parking lot...hehe... after registered myself, i go straight 2 masjid jamek 2 perform my suboh prayer.....n it was damn cool(sape jek yg dpt peluang jemaah kat masjid jamek waktu subuh plak tue)hahahaha...thank god=)

then my duty begin at 7++am...sempat gak p intai runners kat starting line...im so touch of seeing them in full of spirit 2 run for their own cause.....wish can b one of them=) then i came back 2 d goodie bag tent n my duty was officially start at 8am.....memule sikit jek r runners yg amek...then when it come 2 d peak hour around 9-10am, thousands of them came 2 our tent in a bulk!!!!
mengah gak r dibuatnyer...hehehe, but with a good spirit of work and excellent teamwork, we all managed it well!!!!

n exactly at 1030am, i finished my duty with pride=) credit 2 all my team members=)

my team members...proud 2 work with them=)

see how many goodie bags we all had packed!!!!da mcm bukit da kat blakang2=)

pic nie snap after kteorg abes packing defect goodiebag utk kteorg bwk balek...hehehe...byk rezeki hari nie=)

nie wak2 da abes da keje kteorg=)best3

n dis is 1 of my contribution 4 my beloved country=)

remember o not??

some ppl just cant remmber their promise.....n its really hurt

they promise 2 m work hard in study....in d end........

they promise 2 hangout with u soon....but then.......

they promise to always b with u....at last......

they promise 2 obey GOD.....do they??me???


isnt sooooo hard 2 keep with our promises?


>>>>>yes!!!!it ll be damn hard if we ddnt include faith n honest together with our promises...

or ppl just toooooo selfish

i think so=)

backpacking 2 east coast

it was considered 3 days n 2 nights.....n it was fun!!!

flitzo came out with an idea of goin 4 a holiday....n i came out with this backpacking trip!!!memula mmg x expect r nak pegi trip camni...malas 2 put a burden on my own shoulder...kene plan r...duit lagi...acc...etc...malas nak pk...ntah camner terkeluar plak idea goin 2 cherating...n its a beach!!!!!ak mmg suke beach nie...so on jek r....

n dis is our journey.....=)memule amek bas from putrajaya sentral 2 kuantan....we ddnt know dat d easiest way 2 go 2 cherating r by kemaman...2 yg beli tiket ke kuantan 2...p dis is d starting point of d whole backpacking nie...hahaha...lebey travel....lebeh adventure...lebey chalenging...credit 4 us krne bli tiket ke kuantan instead ke kemaman=)naek bas tranasional....flitz kate dis is d safest n most trusted bus...according 2 himla...n its a club style bus...unique=) depart dlm pukol 930am...monday 5th ju

1st stop was at petronas station somewhere dkt karak highway....ak rase r...pas2 yg x besnyer bas nie byk sgt pitstop dier...if im not mistaken ader r bet 3-4 stops....elok2 3 jam bole smpi nie da dkt 5 jam baru smpi kuantan

akhirnye smpi gak kuantan....dalam kol 230pm...huhu....pas2 cari ppunyer cari...tanyer punyer tanyer....kene plak naek local bus 2 cherating....make dgn itu both of us pon tggu r bout half hour 4 d SIHAT or MIRA bus 2 come...hahaha...name die cam x best...ak rase owner die xder idea kot

dlm bus MIRA tue....terjumper r si budak kecik nie.....peramah orgnyer...kekdg senyum...kekdg menjeling....cute gak r...snap cket gmbr die...ingat mak die nak marah, tapi sekali ngan mak die pose!!!hehehe...bas nie plak...jgn cter r...cam ade gempa bumi!!!dgn penuhnyer....hahaha...p it was really fun n adventure kowt!!!!xpenah ak anek bas zaman komunis nie

after bout 2 jam dlm bas MIRA 2...kteorg pon smpi r kat cherating...ni pon mengikut firasat flitz yg nak turun same tmpt ngan mat saleh yg naek bas MIRA 2...bagus gak firasat flitz...round2 jap kat pantai...pas2 bajet nak cari chalet r nie...penat dah nie

pk punyer pk smpi stress rnie...hahaha...pelak jap kat warung tepi pantai...pas2 jmper r bro nie mintak die tumpangkan ke suria beach resort...15 hinggit kowt kene byr bro nie...ak panggl die bro penyu jek...hahaha

jalan punyer jalan...penat kowt berjalan mencari pantai n tempat nak menidorkan diri...p mmg mencabar minda r nie....dlm hati ak ckp menyesal x bwk keta...p bile pk balek best gak jengjln camni kat tmpt org...p yg x besnyer sume org tgk pelik r....yg ak bwk travel beg n camera yg bajet mahal 2....n flitz plak bwk pancing.....ntah knper rmi org yg ak n flitz pass by...sume pndg pelik jek kat kteorg...lantak depa r

smpi gak ke suria cherating beach resort nie....walaupon hargenyer 195 hengget semalam...p dsbbkan da penat tahap kentot...ak check in gak r....lantak r kan...

mmber ak nie plak dlm kepenatan smpt plak bershopping kat kedai kopok lekor depan resort 2...byk gak die borong....ak jek yg x beli paper....xminat...heheheh....kteorg diner kat warung nasi ayam sebelah kedai kopok nie...mkn nasi ayam n satar....ok gak r...da lapar maen tibai jek rkan...hahahaha...bajet malam tue nak g tgk penyu btelor=)

niela pakcik kopok lekor...tekun die menggoreng..xperasan kot ak snap gambr die...hehehe...p ak rase die nie mmg da pose da nie...baek punyer=)

nie dlm bilik resort tue...solat jap b4 nak g tgk penyu....p malangnyer penyu x naek plak mlm tue...tension diri ini...kecewa xpdt tgk penyu bertelor...pelagi, layan movie r kat astro...tv pon tv la...sesembang ngn flitz gak mlm 2...ok t, dpt gak rehat yg secukupnyer utk esok,at least=)

esoknyer lepas suboh flitz da kejot da...smgt die!ak bajet nak smbung tido jek...p bile memikirkan balek da dtg jejaoh ni...baek r ak bangun menikmati matahari terbit....2 dia flitz!!!feeling sengsorang kat tepi pantai...best oooo pantai!!!!suke ak ngan pic nie...rase tenang jek pagi tue...

smpat gak r mengabadikan crocs ak bersame pasir pantai yg best nie=)

tue dia!!!!penyu da naek da!!!hahaha....nie keje flitz r nie...x dpt tgk penyu, buat penyu pasir pon ok=)ak x membantu pon sbb nak melayan jiwang dpagi hari nie=)hehehe

nie plak antara pose menarik yg ak n flitz buat...hahaha...poyo gler r ak rase pagi 2....
ni pose dasar pandang ke timur name die...

nie plak pose dasar pandang keatas

pose nie plak mmg poyo...hahaha

jmper plak umah kmpung nie...pelagi pose hari raye r....=)

hahaha..nie mmg hari raye nie...


jmper plak buaian pohon beringin nie....nie rase nak kawin dgn anak raje nie...hahaha


mamat nie plak dok posing dpn signboard...okla 2...utk kenangan


da puas round2 satu pantai 2, kteorg breakfast kat hotel....bedal secukup2nyer....menu biase jek...xbes mane pon....p ok r kan...bajet nak teros lunch skali r nie...p perut x muat r plak...hahaha


dok syok2 makan tetiber nmpk plak reramai artis2 tanahair kat cafe resort...ruper2nyer mereka semua sdg shooting cter hari raye...menunggu takbir raye name drama 2 kalo x silap...hahahaha.....nie kali kebape ntah ak telah menyebok kat shooting drama melayu...mslhnyer satu pon ak x kenal name....ade gak r sorang 2 yg ak kenal muke die...huhuhuhu...malunyer ak menjadi rakyat malaysia p x kenal pelakon malaysia sendiri...huuhuhu


nie la antara pelakon drama 2...mase ak snap gambar nie ak x tau plak yg bdk nie pelakon....bile flitz bagitau baru r ak tau...hehehe...

sempat gak r snap pic ngan 1 of d actor...xtau plak name die....yg bestnyer die yg tanyer ak nak amek gmbr ngan die x...hahahaa...die kate rugi r kalo x amek gambar ngan die....ak layan jek r=)


da puas kat resort nie, ak ngan flitz pon packing r nak bla dr resort nie...overall puas hati gak r ngan resort nie....sume ok...2 bende jek yg x best bagi ak...1) x dpt tgk penyu....hahaha...2) welcome juice die same ngan juice breakfast!!!hahaha...xder modal ker??....


da check out, kami pon dok r tepi jalan nie mengikut adat resam backpackers yg laen.....buat penat jek lambai2 tangan...xder sape pon nak benti....mayb malaysia blom cukup selamat lagi r nie....kteorg bajet nak g kemaman dulu...saje jek mengisi mase lapang.....mane r tau ader bende best kat kemaman 2....after 30mins waiting, SIHAT bus pon smpi...hahahaha...another round of earthquake!!...best2


x smpi 20min kteorg pon smpi r kat pekan kemaman nie....kat muare sungai rupernyer....ape lagi...flitz pon ajak r pancing ikan...ak ok jek


jumper plak mamat sorang nie yg jual air jmbu...sedap oooo....5 cawan ak beli......kteorg relax r kejap kat tepi muare 2 smbil minum air jambu tambah asam...hahahaha..mantap r

pastu tros cari surau...yg best nyer jmper masjid jamek 2....sejuk jek masjid nie...best2


yg menariknyer pasal masjid nie, tanah kubur die r...pelik tol...sume batu nisan dicat putih pastu cam xder tanda name jek....menarik2....sush nak jmper tanah kubur camnie...insaf ak...


lepas menunaikan kewajipan...ak ngan flitz g r round2 pekan chukai nie...nak cari umpan plannyer...p masuk kedai 2 masuk kedai nie...hahaha..gmbar nie mase kat kedai bundle....tekun gler r budak nie ngan abg2 die mencari baju...terharu ak tgk mereke...last2 beli sehelai jek baju...sedey gak ak melihatnyer...huhuhu


pas2 masuk kedai pancing nie...xder r plak umpan kat sini....p jumper nyonya yg malu2 nie...hahahah...die tgh makan biskut....sempat gak r ak snap gambr die...x sempat die nak nyorok

akhirnye....selepas tanyer org sane, tanyer org sini....jumper gak r pasar basah nie....malangnyer da tutup plak.....ape lagi....flitzo nie kutip jek r segale sisa2 yg ader utk buat umpan...hahahaha...lawak gak r....xpenah ak buat keje nie.....best3

da dpt umpan, nie la aksi2 kteorg memancing.....ketam jek pon yg makan umpan...hahaha...maner nak dpt tangkap....papehal pon best 1st time dpt pancing....dpt maen ngan ketam lagi tue



dalam kol 530pm, kteorg pon naek r bus MIRA ke kuantan.....jmper plak ngan mamat nie....memalu gak mamat nie...hahaha...saje jek snap gmbr die.....dr sebelah ak, tros lari kedepan mamat nie...sori r ek mat mengacau ketenteraman anda=)

nie la rupe dalaman bas earthquake nie...heheheh...bole r kan...asal smpi kuantan

maghrib baru kteorg smpi kuantan...tros cari masjid die.....jaoh gak jalan kaki ke masjid nie dari terminal bas....bepeloh gak r.......mandi, solat, rehat jap....pastu dlm kol 8pm gerak cari makan plak
sempat lagi melawat pahang art museum nie....p dari luar jek r...

dinner kat bistro nie....ok r food dier....da lapar mane bedal jek r

da abes makan dlm kol 9pm kteorg round2 r kat pekan kuantan nie...ade life gak pekan nie....best2

singgah jap kat mall nie...ape ntah name die....luper plak....berjaya mall kot

pas2 singgah plak kat indie market nie ala ala downtown la nie....cool giler r shop nie...jual topi2 yg best2....p ak minat tgk jer r....beli x =)




jalan punyer jalan da dekat kol 1130pm da....maker bergerak r kami berdue balik ke kl yg best nie....selamat tinggal kuantan, cherating, chukai, chendor, kemaman.....hahahaha ade mase kteorg datang lagi=)


WUT a great trip!!!!
next trip....incoming!!!!!!!